Wishing You A Happy Birthday

It’s 3 days before your birthday. I may not have a time to meet you and give you a present, but I make a time to write this. I know we don’t talk for many days, but it doesn’t mean I don’t think about you. I swear I do, but I have no ways to show you that I’m really care about you. This may be the last time I write things about you. Because I’ve got to move on and let you live your life happily with her.

Happy Birthday to you,
The special person that ever stay in my heart for months
Up and down in our friendship may be give us something to learn
I wish you are grow wiser as you grow older
Because I know someday, you’re gonna be a great man
Once again, happy birthday
Hope all your wish come true
Because what makes you happy, makes me feel the same.
I love you J

Things I Wish You Would Do and The Opposite You’ve Done

I wish, you come back to me after I push you away.

But you don’t. You pick her with you and go.

I wish, you show me how much you actually want to be with me.
But you don’t. You show me how you actually want to be with her.

I wish, you chase after me when I walk away from you.
But you don’t. You just going to another way and meet her.

I wish, you reassure me when I get jealous to another girl that means nothing.
But you don’t. You make me realize that I’m the one who means nothing.

I wish, you fight for me when I’m too afraid to stay in the relationship.
But you don’t. You left me.

I wish, you prove to me that I’m able to trust someone again.
But you don’t. You showed me why I shouldn’t have to trust somebody 

So I heard you’re sorry about things that you’ve done.
But I just want you to show me that you’re really sorry. 

Nothing Left To Me

Some days we’re act like a couple in love. Some other days we’re just act like we’re stranger. I never understand why it come to us. If you can’t love me. If I can’t have you. Why I must loving you all this time? Why I just can’t go away and pretending like nothing ever happen between us? Why you can’t be real and saying that you don’t love me? Why you still ask about me to my friend? Don’t you know it makes me harder to leave. It seems like you still have something to me. But I keep remind myself that you’re not. You love her and nothing left to me.

Being a Reflection

We used to have something. Something great that I can’t explain. Something that makes me happier than I used to be. But lately, I realize something. I know, for you, I’m just her reflection. The sweet things that you’ve done to me, that’s all fake. You want to treat her like that but you can’t, so you treat me that way. I know you make some girls as her reflection. I wish I can make a difference. But I can’t. I’m being another reflection. I think I’m okay with that. I can deal with it. But I’m not.

I know she must be coming back and you’re gonna leave me behind. I’m ready even I’m not. Cause I know that’s all you want. You waiting for months to be with her. All the things I’ve done just doesn’t enough to make you happy and forget about her. You still want her even you’ve ever said to me that you doesn’t love her anymore. I know you’re lying. It’s okay. I used to.  Some people just can’t be real with me.